Yesterday my beautiful princess (Caitlin) started Kindergarten. She was like a brave little soldier marching into the line of fire. She had no fears, just pure excitement to start her new journey. I am staring something myself- a blog. I have been obsessed with reading other peoples blogs for so long-why not create my own. I just have to warn you- my favorite thing to talk about is Caitlin.

I guess I should start with the preparation for the big K. We had been preparing for
weeks months for the big day known as
THE FIRST DAY OF KINDERGARTEN!! Over the last few months we have purchased new clothes, new shoes (which according to Caitlin--- shoes are always the most important part of the outfit), new school supplies, and a new backpack with matching lunchbox. Even though we had prepared for all of this it was still an emotional time for Caitlin. Last Friday was her last day of preschool. She had been so excited about starting at her new school she forgot that she would no longer be at that school with her friends she had grown up with. Over the last week her preschool teachers had a big party celebrating the "Graduates". They also made autograph books for all kiddos to sign and made homemade pinatas. All of this seemed so great to her until last Friday at 5:15 when I was there to pick her up. She finally realized that was the end- she would no longer be at this place she was so comfortable with. She had been going to that preschool for over 3 years. She hugged every kid and teacher over and over. And tried to explain to the younger kids that she would not be there anymore. She seemed so grown up telling them goodbye.
After we left the preschool she said "I am going to miss everyone, I wish I could see them again." This ending broke my heart a little- I had been stressing about how she would struggle with the change of schools that I hadn't really even considered my own feelings. I had come to know and trust this little preschool. While I was at work I knew that she was locked in this building with no way to get out, no way a bigger kid could hurt her feelings or persuade her to do bad things, no way she would get lost in this little building. Elementary school was scary to think about- what would happen if all these horrible things happened?
Over the weekend we went out of town to Aunt Vicki's for her baby shower and spent the entire day on Monday having the last Mommy-Daughter day before school started. Monday night we sat in her bed and read the book "The Night Before Kindergarten". I have been searching for the perfect book to read with her for her last day of a "little kid" and this book seemed to be perfect. The last page in the book talks about how kindergarten is cool and parents shouldn't cry. So Caitlin kept telling me that over and over that she did not want me to cry because it would be uncool. She made me promise not to be "uncool" the next day.
So, yesterday morning the day we had been preparing for had arrived. I was prepared for her to have a hard time. I was prepared for her to cry out "Don't leave me Mom!". Instead I got this-
"Don't forget about the book we read- Don't be uncool!".
WHAT?!?!?!?! How did my 5 year old daughter grow up so quickly? I tried to be a follow her instructions and be a cool mom and stay out of her way. My hubby and I stood in the hallway while she ate her first breakfast at school in the gym. It felt like I took hundreds of photos. I just had to capture the moment.
We eventually found our way back into the gym and tried to help her put her tray and silverware away and she did not need or want our help. She had it all under control- while we were in the hallway she had asked the Pime Time teacher to help her when it was time to dump her tray. My heart once again was broken- I realized at that moment that she was a Big Kid now and did not need me.
She did allow us to walk behind her to her class.
Once we were arrived to her classroom she ran to her desk and asked us to stop taking pictures- we were being uncool. I don't even think we got a goodbye.
Over the last few months I had been so scared she would be afraid to start this day but she had no fears--she was ready for this. So, we left our baby BIG GIRL there to start this awesome new adventure.
Oh by the way- I was cool and I did not cry.